Sunday, May 5, 2013

Remedies

My doctor gave me an Rx for a forced vacation and it did me a world of good. I was drowning in work.  I lost hours of client work from the fire that I had to recreate.  I have to recreate a paper  trail of my life, passport and past taxes, etc.  I have had new client work.  Because I'm now in a condo and can't let Oakley out the back door, I have a small challenge of finding a dogwalker if I have to work late or want to go out.  So due to my daily grind extreme  I lost the will to live for a little while. I've remedied this with the forced vacation and hired a good assistant temporarily.  But life has handed me other remedies.

I can't even tell you how excited I am to move to a new home in this quirky, historic town where there are no sad memories of Larry.  Yesterday, I got through a critical step of the home buying process.   I had to hire a geophysicist to take sonar pictures of the ground to search for an oil tank.  Luckily for all, there is no sign of an oil tank ever having been on the property.   I joked to my assistant that the geophysicist would find the hidden treasure and that I could split it with the owners.  I can't help but wish for a Disney ending and I know someone in France who found medieval coins while renovating their home and they were able to retire.  The geophysicist did find an old bottle so God had a little fun with me and my treasure fantasy.

Speaking of France, when Larry died, I asked myself what would make me happy again.  Memories of vacations to France visiting my college friends Christine and Thierry are magical.  My next vacation to France is booked for September.  Christine and Thierry are picking me up from the airport.

There's a whole lot to look forward to and it has shifted in just the past few weeks.  Now that I am through all of the milestones of Larry's birthday and holidays and his passing, I feel lighter and I value the time that we were partnered, but I'd like to trade the sad memories for happy memories of Larry, his generosity, how fun he was.   My load is finally a little lighter but I won't refuse the Disney ending should it come along.