Tuesday, September 3, 2013

A promise kept

Just finished up teaching the monthly Video Camera Basics Class and packing some things for my big trip to France.  After Larry passed.  I had to ask myself what would make me happy.  The only thing I could think of was being in a place that had happy memories...France.  I made a promise to myself to go and off I go again to visit the same friends in the same places and I don't mind this a bit.  It feels like home.  

Speaking of home.  Everyone who visits my new home in Bordentown expresses more or less these words, "this house is so adorable, it's so you." And it has been such a safe haven.  Those who know the extreme trouble it was for me to get this house due to my firebug status in the insurance world also know that I almost gave up.  In fact it was touch and go up until the last hour.  I'm glad that it all worked out.  I'm having such a good time in my new town.  I ended up with really great neighbors on each side.  Oakley is so happy to have a yard again.  She doesn't care that it's about 1/20th of the size...she only cares that I'm there and that there are squirrels to chase.

So what still gets me down?  Occasionally, the fact that I have no family heirlooms.  But mostly, it is still extremely stressful to both run a business and have a part time job.  I don't have a whole lot of free time, but I do have some and I schedule some.

I am still pretty upset by almost all of Larry's friends abandoning me.  Now that the fire has wiped out physical memories, it's as if our life together never happened.  If you're thinking that maybe they don't know it's important to me, they know.  The words came out of my mouth and fell on deaf ears.  If I can take one thing away from this, however, is how special the few that remained are to me.

My blood still boils when I think about my former mayor and how the local government treated me.  Man, you would think I was an arsonist.  They were downright cruel and wrong.

My small romances of last month have come to a screeching halt, but that's ok.  France is waiting for me and that's been a long standing romance since I was young.